“The Nuisance Candidates”

The worst thing was going round the room saying what you are doing - I just felt really humble saying, 'I'm Ruth Wilson, I'm playing Jane Eyre' – Ruth Wilson

This article isn’t about politics but somehow it could be related to....

Everyday I would hear other people talking about their achievements in life, plans and current situations. I ain’t perfect to tell that those people are too selfish not to give considerations to other co-workers but in my personal opinion they’re creating a chaotic environment.

What would you do if people around would always talk about the same thing over and over again? Would you be happy and eager to converse with them knowing that you already talked about it? Hahahaha! This article is making me a bad person. But somehow it helps me control my self, it helps me not to feel hatred, it helps me control my emotion to burst. That is why, most of the time I would divert my attention to other things like preparing my prepared lessons, chatting with mentees and other students, or sometimes texting and listening to mellow music using my headphone. Hahaha... Really a bad guy!

These kind of people are not tired of telling stories ‘bout theirselves. Obviously, in the film they were the ones who are called the lead actors and actresses. They are the ones being focused by the camera or by the spotlight. Do i envy them? No, I am starting to hate them.

At one instance, I joined them in a meeting. We are suppose to talk about our primary concerns (agenda), but it turn out talking about them. Of how great they are, how other people would look upon them and most specially how perfect they are. Hahahaha – but nobody is perfect as far as I know. They would consisntently show and prove you that they are the best compare to other people around them. It was like a competition everytime they converse. Survival of the fittest – oopppsss! Survival of the witty. Those who are not intellectually capable, lost in the competition. But if you’ll observe it more, everything is nonsense because most of the inputs are all about themselves proving they’re good, they’re the best and not the concern one. It always turn out blaming other people.

I wanted a new environment. On the other hand, I can’t force the people around me to make the changes or even adjust for my own sake. That is too selfish of me. I have to deal things on my own, and not bother other people to do it for me.

When would I stop?! I don’t know... Maybe when the time comes that I lost my interest of joining them.